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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Nobody Died That Night.

Okay. So, this likely won't be the best post, but since I called the bank twice, worked on my pathetically useless-in-Texas resume, vented about the insensitive wang I work for, talked to my ex-husband about an LLC, went shopping at the world's most fashion challenged Walmart, friended ancient peoples who mean fuck all to me on facebook, smoked the cheapest cigarette in the Universe, drank some timeless Miller Lite and talked to my schizo-affected kid-glove brother... I feel as if I have accomplished enough to write a quick post about the past weekend's camping trip.

We went to Lake Livingston. I haven't been there in 20 years. I remember it being a really great park. I remember hanging my feet off of the small dock, breaking moonlight in the lapping water with my pre-teen toes and catching perch in a large hand held net. It seemed busy with people but not chaotic. I don't remember there being an equestrian stable and trails back then, and I am pretty sure there was wildlife wandering through the campsites.

This time around, Lake Livingston might as well have been Jones lake and I mean that in the harshest sense. It was thrashed from Ike and no real effort had been made to clean up camp sites. Our tent spot was 40 feet from a road, where cars careened along all night disrupting our sense of "getting away." There was no wildlife at all except a black and white housecat, one squirrel, one lizard and a white pomeranian. There was no fish to be seen, except for one fat carp who sucked on a dock piling while all of us losers tried to bait him with worms and plastic fantasy-looking neon creatures. It was sort of like ten fat but somehow still hungry bruiser cosmetologists- desperate to lay their magic on an unlipsticked up Gar, because they were starving for protein and had something to prove, all swinging their lipstick over the side of an abyss from strings that had no future in success as far as dolling up some protein... I didn't see anyone catch a thing and this included people with 10 ton tackle boxes in lawn chairs who probably lived on the lake. Every ten minutes we heard what sounded like a peacock having an orgasm, and never actually identified the creature making the sound, but suspect it was a slave girl being held by the Mooks over at less primitive camp sites. Less... primitive... sites.

You can't really choose who your camp neighbors are going to be, and I guess this is always a gamble. We didn't have to deal with truckloads of high school losers enjoying their first beers. There weren't children fighting over things. There weren't loud belt tugging veterans speaking over each other with greater stories... But there was a strange group of men who set up camp shortly after we did. At first brushings, I thought that there were two leaders in a group of adult-disability-veteran-community little brothers program. Half of their camp seemed awkward and the other half seemed almost obnoxious in their know-how.



Nothing seemed special about them the first night. We made jokes that they were homosexual-as you would expect of us- and there was little fanfare. The next morning, we awoke to what we thought was a message. Someone had placed a burnt human limb in the driveway entrance to our site. Later, as we were sitting around having dinner at our campfire (looking sideways at the charred limb a few feet away) John was playing some fine acoustic metal songs, and the man-group camping across from us started playing a goat horn and singing in hebrew. yes. They did. So, I had to sing my Amy Grant "El Shadai" which I learned in vocal training to be obnoxious.... I don't think that really did much for me or anyone else for that matter. Learning that song or vocal training that is. Nobody died that night.



We left camp early on Sunday, with no luck at fishing, and no groovy wildlife experiences to take home with us. We decided to do some small town off-roading and check out Swartwout, which was a Ghost town down the road. Nothing too special there. It was meant to be Polk County's original county seat- but Livingston somehow won that deal. The history involves a somewhat interesting tale of the settlers and developers and their political schemes and failures. The church is the coolest building that we saw, and it was pretty neglected even though services were being held in an adjacent structure by a local Methodist? group. Back woods effort to take care of that historical marker sucked polar dick to be sure. Sad.




We hit the road and had to stop when we saw a beautiful cat perched upon a rotted pole at a Goodrich, Tx "intersection" across from "City hall". John said, " Look. Cat." and since I am an animal lover without animals-- I forced John at gun point to stop so I could pet that cat. The cat wasn't having any of me, and it ran into a dilapidated building with a sign above it. "J.A.Young & Sons Grocery and Market". I took off my flip flops, put on my muddy boots and made my way through the brush to look into the busted windows, while John parked the car.






I had a moment to myself to look inside the property, before I beckoned John to join me. It was crazy. The cat had disappeared somewhere into a mess of abandoned organic squalor. The floor was covered in trash. There were cat prints on the wall next to a last supper print. A miniature christmas tree sat on top of a bird cage stand in a corner, but center stage to it all, was a piano that had been neglected.

I took some photos and we jetted before having dogs loosed upon us from a neighbor.

About ten or twenty minutes later, we saw another house that needed inspection. I call it inspection. You call it trespassing. We all benefit. This property speaks for itself when you look at the exterior. You have to look inside right? You can't just drive by a place like this that has open doors and no windows and not look. You can't. Well, I can't. Here's the pictures.






After stopping and spending about 1/2 an hour here, we hit the road only stopping twice more on the way home. We stopped at Buster McNutty's for shitty food- when we had expected so much more, and we stopped at Huntsville State Park which was very nice. All I could think of was getting home though so I could research the two properties that I had taken pictures of.

What I learned about the Grocer/Market, was that the original owner was a grandson of one of Livingston's founding members who was a Methodist minister. The original owner had passed away, as had likely his sons, and I found a record of his grandson having passed away in 1998. Who owns that property now, is a mystery to me. Who owned that piano.. a bigger one.

The small homestead we stopped and took pictures of off of hwy190, belonged to William Hillhouse. I believe he was born in December 1927, and passed away in January of 2000. He was a disabled veteran and from what we could gather based off of information we unearthed-- was that he was in the air force's 30th communications squadron and worked with code breakers in Omaha Nebraska in the 1950's. I think he has at least one surviving son in Goodrich of the same name, but his house sure did indicate that no one in his family cared.

I failed to mention that before we made it home, we stopped at the carnival on I-45 so I could take some pictures. If we hadn't of stopped, we wouldn't have discovered where Stacey (the singer from The Cows) was now working.



I think he may even be this lady's BRUSBAND.




I have additional photos and brief stories to share in an additional post, about our excursions into the realm of shitty resale shops and more.

TOMORROW=BUTTERNUT SQUASH SOUP, but what did I learn on this trip?

Trespass.

14 Comments:

John Cramer said...

It's hard, when spending time in little towns, to not laugh at the whole "main street versus Wall Street" twaddle bandied about during this last presidential campaign. The Main Streets that we've seen in these last several months have all pretty much been amalgamations of the past hobbled together with bailing wire and fear. The desperation and emptiness that prevails in those small towns is truly terrifying to me. The abundance of trash-laden resale shops alone is sad enough without having to dig too much farther into the decay and loss of hope. Somehow I doubt that Wall Street is feeling this same sort of thing. I'm pretty sure the execs at AIG aren't sweating it too bad at their million dollar Ritz Carlton retreats.

The Hillhouse house (as it were) really makes me think about how easy it is for a life to fall apart and how quick it takes time to swallow the past and leave it rotting in the corner.

That man was reduced to a clapboard shack on the side of a busy road, taking apart televisions and making $50 dollar car payments and hanging on to junk mail appealing to his being a veteran in order to ask him for money for other vets in need.

His house was a shed. I suspect his house was his grave. One day that place will be leveled and it will be as if he never existed at all.

Even the town in which he kept his PO Box is no longer an incorporated city.

Death may not be THE end, but is an end. That much is for sure.

What a fucked up, dilapidated mess we've made of this country, and what a pleasure it is to go see it with you, Unspeakable. I can't think of a better way to live.

Great post.

baleen said...

Nice.
The post sort of reminded me of Cormac McCarthy's "The Road". Failure everywhere. I particularly like driving through parts of New Mexico. Abandoned shacks, motor homes, cars rotting in the weeds, old storefronts in all of their tragic beauty. Could be anywhere, I guess. I wonder if the current financial meltdown will accelerate this decay in more and more places.
That leads me to carnivals. There is one that has been popping up in the parking lot of a dead shopping mall very near my house. Yes, when the carni comes to your neighborhood, progress has thus ceased. Game over. These desperate little ecosystems, (though they provide thrills, games, nachos, and cheap Chinese shit) will pack up in the wee hours only to return who-knows-when. The whole thing is sad to me.

And lastly, what's really up with that charred bone in the picture? Cannibal cults on the rise!

The Butcher doth thrive on the epic fail of humanity. More please.

The Unspeakable said...

Glad the post wasn't a total failure. I love taking pictures and only wish that my camera and my abilities were better. Since living in a tiny village for the past decade, there wasn't too many opportunities after a certain point to take pictures of anything or anyone new... with the exception of some exceptional event. Now, I just want to take pictures of total strangers and grocery store isles and litter and all kinds of crap. Its not easy to make people comfortable with a camera trained on them... at least the kinds of people I want to photograph.. but that is not exactly news is it?

I forget what other photos I have to share. Maybe I will dig them up now and make a post.

By the way, if anyone reading this has an interest in posting themselves... By all means, we would love the involvement.

C

John Cramer said...

The Unspeakable is right on. Anybody reading this with stories to tell, stories that make this life a little less oppressive have a place to do it in here. Hit us up. We are always open to contributions so bring 'em on.

Dot Dean said...

Hey, I grew up in one of those veteran's roadside shacks out in the boonies. Never, ever felt forgotten or desperate. Ask Tom Carter.

John Cramer said...

And you're the better for it.

The Unspeakable said...

"Hey, I grew up in one of those veteran's roadside shacks out in the boonies. Never, ever felt forgotten or desperate.."

Maybe you never felt forgotten or desperate because you weren't an elder living alone who had been neglected by the family-that grew up feeling like everything was just fine in that roadside shack. If Mr Hillhouse had family, and they knew of the way he was living before he died-- I would call them criminal in their neglect. I have seen examples of elders living in similar circumstances in Alaska, and I never once questioned the lifestyle of people who chose to live on the perimeter of townships. I only wonder about the relationships within families and friends that can allow those amongst us with failing faculty and lacking resources to go it alone to the point where death is an actual by product of the environment they call home.

I didn't go into my feelings about the state of Mr. Hillhouse's abandoned property, because it is a complicated affair and my feelings are very strong about it.

I have an appreciation for these homes on the outskirts that represent a different era in the process of dying and being forgotten. It breaks my heart more than it incites my curiosity-- because it shows that having a sense of community is always relative when you're a burden on your neighbor instead of a blessing.

Dorothy said...

I suppose I should mention that my dad blew his brains out with a shotgun in that shack.

The Unspeakable said...

Dorothy,

Is this a competition of survivors?

Cool.. Then nothing has changed.

Thanks for spreading your wings in our arms.

We hear you.

Dorothy said...

I didn't mean to get your hackles up, if I did.
I remember good times in shacks out in the woods. When I read your post, I thought of those immediately,and wanted to let you know that I desire the lifestyle my my Dad termed "dendroid"--books, trees, self-sufficiency, solitude, a necessary aloneness. The other, less appealing things I only recalled later, after I read your "rebuttal". I'm amazed at my happy progression of thought, and grateful that I'm wired that way.
Anyway, I only brought up that he killed himself out there to validate what you were saying, not to garner sympathy or stoke up some kind of goth-style misery throwdown.

Mr. Lost His Way said...

That does look like the guy from the Cows who incidentally lived with my friends in Queens for a while. I stayed there a couple of times and remember him boiling chickens and mustard greens - shack living in the city.

I've always lived in a big city except for a childhood stint in an exotic Arabian desert oil town. So I have this Thoreau dream to live out in a shack. I think I've mentioned this before. Tricia is good at dispelling my romantic view. She grew up outside of Victoria.

In our collective experience, and to generalize a bit, there is a big difference between my gentleman farmer view of the country and the reality of the close mindedness that comes from isolation and lack of education.

Mr. Lost His Way said...

Btw nice post and I love the photos.

The Unspeakable said...

So much can be lost in this medium, and sometimes I should just break down and ask for clarity instead of assuming I know commenter motivations. I didn't mean to be insensitive Dorothy, about your comment concerning your father. The whole trespassing experience had a pretty strange effect on me, and it did sort of get my ire up. What can I do about it though? As John says, you can't save everyone.

Maybe if I have some more time this evening or tomorrow I can upload more pictures of this trip. I could also share some pictures from Edna (where Kilian's wife is from) and Victoria-- which in my opinion is totally Coastal weird. I had a total breakdown at a cemetery there when I stumbled upon a corner of the property that was entirely children's graves. The graves were covered with toys and things that parents had left for their deceased children. How much fucking heavier could I have gone? I worked on the cemetery in the small village I lived in on the Aleutian Peninsula, and a large portion of those graves were unmarked children's. Many perished during the flu epidemic in 1918 ( i think that's the date...) Why do I gravitate toward these depressing places?

I guess carnivals depress me too... so I am not sure what would be left for me... Nature? Ugg... I took pictures of some Nutria hanging out in Meyer Park a couple weeks ago. I can't believe people eat those things. Disgusting.

Anyways, more pictures to come. If anyone else would like to participate and make strictly photo posts too.. that would be cool. Please share the images of your life with us.

Dorothy said...

Hey, I ate nutria in our shack!
No, seriously.